Sat., May 2, 2009

I'm choosing to write about the songs I'm playing this Saturday at David's gravesite, in remembrance of his holy passing from this world to heaven's glory.
If you get to hear "Find Us Faithful", this song speaks of those who come behind us finding that we were an example of faithfulness to God. I think it honors David's life to remember that we do remember his faithfulness. Secondly, the song "God and God Alone" puts the right perspective on God's position and our position. This song was the first one we both chose to be sung at our wedding in 1995. I think it is a fitting reminder of God's place in our marriage and lives.
Thirdly, the song "How Great Thou Art" is the song that God used to usher David into heaven (and used our voices - as ungifted as they are).
Steve Green on I-Tunes sings all three of these well, but Jack Lanenga used to sing "Find Us Faithful" at ECRC and I always touched heaven's shore hearing it!
May you enjoy music in remembrance of those you love :)
Have a sweet weekend, Mary

Caring Bridge

As I reread the Caring Bridge postings and responses from this time last year, I choose to post on it again. I'm not going to over analyze why, but do like outlets to write. This "anniversary" thing is much easier when it is a sweet memory, so I'm focusing on all God did to walk David and I through this time last year. I remember Christ's strength and provision each day. There is no way the human David and Mary could have handled David's loss of strength without depending on Christ's. I believe it says in 2 Corin. 12:9 "My grace is sufficient for you, for My power is made perfect in weakness." Christ's power was indeed perfect when David and I were weak.
May His grace be sufficient for you, as you walk through today -
Much love,
Mary

This is hard

As I walk through a beautiful morning, I want to run again. Run where? Just run. Keeping busy is definitely a way of handling emotional pain. I choose to sit down, close the door and weep as I look at pictures. It is a choice I'm making because I simply need to go through this instead of running from it.
So there it is - this is hard.
I'm not writing for sympathy - the Lord knows I don't want to spend too much time thinking about myself - because our lives are about honoring Jesus, not us.
So, I'm writing just to acknowledge the Truth. This is hard.
Doable, yes, but difficult.
I guess, eventually, it will strengthen me - or maybe just facing it strengthens me -we'll see! For right now, I'm facing the pain involved in missing David.
I'm still focused on how much God loves him and I - and I'm grateful for even getting to walk this earth as his friend and wife - so grateful that I'm missing his presence.
Love,
Mary

GRACE

When God says His grace is sufficient, I trust that. So, I ask for more grace everytime I get sad - and He blesses me with more.
We didn't choose "How Great Thou Art" on May 2nd, as David entered heaven. None of us were thinking clearly that morning. But, God was. I didn't even know the final verse, but God did.
"When Christ shall come with shout of acclamation and take me home, what joy shall fill my heart. Then I shall bow in humble adoration and then proclaim, "My God, How Great Thou Art."
I believe God ushered His servant, David, into heaven with David singing those words. It is a tremendous blessing and memory.
I've found some of David's answers to questions from his church in a pre-marital lesson. He notes that a woman he marries has to have Christ as her first love, because Christ was his first love.
This helps me be grateful that He is experiencing life with his first love.
And, finally, today, I want to send along my favorite quote to David:
"Even if we walked this earth together for a thousand years and I whispered a prayer of gratitude with every breath I took, even then, I could never thank God enough for the blessing of your love."
Have a blessed day, Mary